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muserevival2014-12-13 03:24 pm
miss_bliss) wrote in muserevival2014-12-13 03:24 pm
082.3 - First Person - "This time last year, everything was so different."
Last Christmas I was on a plane. I wish I could tell you where but the destination wasn't as important as getting out of Japan. The only thing I really remember about that day was talking to this guy in the bar at the airport.
He was on his way home from deployment. A real young guy. Barely married a year and 8 months of it he spent in some god forsaken desert. He told me all his family was already waiting at the base. He had a real big family from the sound of it. Some of them even had to fly in from out of town. I remember thinking that there was no one waiting for me on the other end of my flight. No one even knew where I was. If the plane went down, no one would even know that I was dead since the ticket wasn't in my real name.
It wasn't then that I decided to come back to New York. That was months later but that day was when the seed was planted. Even when I finally decided to come back, I told myself it was out of self-preservation. I'd pissed off too many dangerous people. Seeking out Matt was a risk but I told myself that my odds were better with him then toughing it out alone.
The truth is I don't want to die without a single person knowing or caring that I'm gone.
He was on his way home from deployment. A real young guy. Barely married a year and 8 months of it he spent in some god forsaken desert. He told me all his family was already waiting at the base. He had a real big family from the sound of it. Some of them even had to fly in from out of town. I remember thinking that there was no one waiting for me on the other end of my flight. No one even knew where I was. If the plane went down, no one would even know that I was dead since the ticket wasn't in my real name.
It wasn't then that I decided to come back to New York. That was months later but that day was when the seed was planted. Even when I finally decided to come back, I told myself it was out of self-preservation. I'd pissed off too many dangerous people. Seeking out Matt was a risk but I told myself that my odds were better with him then toughing it out alone.
The truth is I don't want to die without a single person knowing or caring that I'm gone.