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muserevival2015-01-10 10:05 am
miss_bliss) wrote in muserevival2015-01-10 10:05 am
081.4 Tears
She was drunk. She didn't find a new place to stay. She didn't seek out a friend or support. She went straight to the bar and didn't stop drinking until they closed. Kicked out again. It couldn't be right. It couldn't be over. Rather than drive to a hotel, she drove to the park. She wandered stumbling for god knows how long seeking out golden eyes through blurred vision.
"Where are you?!" She screamed into the dark. "Please." She said more quietly as she fell to her knees. There was no one there. No one coming. The full impact of what was lost hit her and she felt like she couldn't breathe. Nicole fought to gain control of herself. She scrubbed her face with her hands and brought back wet fingers. Tears. Not the fake tears she used to manipulate. There was no audience. This was just her. Nicole looked at her hands as the desperation became disgust. What was she doing? This wasn`t her. Heartbroken or not, she had to be stronger than this.
"You're pathetic." She murmured angrily brushing the tears out of her eyes and climbing to her feet. With her walls firmly in place again, she started back to her car.
"Where are you?!" She screamed into the dark. "Please." She said more quietly as she fell to her knees. There was no one there. No one coming. The full impact of what was lost hit her and she felt like she couldn't breathe. Nicole fought to gain control of herself. She scrubbed her face with her hands and brought back wet fingers. Tears. Not the fake tears she used to manipulate. There was no audience. This was just her. Nicole looked at her hands as the desperation became disgust. What was she doing? This wasn`t her. Heartbroken or not, she had to be stronger than this.
"You're pathetic." She murmured angrily brushing the tears out of her eyes and climbing to her feet. With her walls firmly in place again, she started back to her car.