Something Special

It's no secret that I don't know what I'm supposed to be thinking or feeling most of the time. I looked up the definition of "bipolar" once, and it literally means having two poles, or two extremes. That's exactly what this fucking thing feels like. To the point that the middle ground that could probably be loosely termed "normal" doesn't seem to happen very often. You go from one pole to the other, you're usually hanging in one side or the other. I mean, I have this thing. It's me, it's my life, and I still don't get it most of the time.

( [CONTAINS MINOR TRIGGERING CONTENT] But I don't want to talk about that again here. I've already filled pages and pages of journals talking about that shit. Sometimes I read back and can barely make sense of what I've written... )

Justin Campbell
Original Character