"I found the reason for me to change who I used to be." - The Reason, Hoobastank

I don't feel like a father. I'm not sure I ever really have. I know I certainly haven't fought to figure it out. Today was one of those worse days they warn you might come. Sort of like the other even-keel days are the calm before the storm. The cravings have been unbearable and I was feeling physically sick during the night right into today. I didn't even want to bother getting out of bed. I did, though. It felt like a mean feat to achieve, but I did. Can't say I looked any level of presentable, however. But there are no airs and graces in this place.

( It wasn't a group therapy day today. Private sessions only... )

Cole Carrington
( original character )

DESIRE
( contains supernatural themes )
Seamus had gone over a century without feeling the level of intense desire that Luka had triggered inside him. For so long, it had only ever been music that ignited any distinct sense of passion in him. He was a minority in his Kind, but that was always how it had been for him.

How it had been until now. He wasn’t ready to pause and try to analyse this yet, because there was a part of him that truly feared what he would discover if he did. Instead, in his dressing room backstage of the theatre, he had Luka pressed up against the wall and the passion had swelled so rapidly, that Luka’s shirt was already torn off and shed to the floor. Seamus was kissing him hungrily and Luka was returning it with just as much heat. The Aussie hottie’s hand were possessively on Seamus’ ass, which was soon squeezed with determination.

( Seamus pulled back out of the kiss, eyes now silver and fangs bared with an edacious smile... )

Seamus O'Reilly
- kindred: the embraced oc -
desperatebeliever used with love and permission

What's done is done

Euan hadn't want to be one of those guys who flipped their shit when their other half came to tell him they were pregnant. Sure, it was potentially a decent reason to want to flip one's shit, but he had mellowed a lot these days. He had faced so much in the past 10 or so years that he didn't see the point completely losing his cool whenever a curve ball hit. It was life, there were fucking curve balls flying at you from all angles on the regular. Stress was never a good thing because it unleashed the demons of craving for a hit, and he wanted to try to get things more right than wrong these days.

( There was no denying that he was nervous and scared about a new bairn being on the way... )

Euan Fitzpatrick (Original Character)

Ten things people have said to you that changed you

1. "C'mon, what's one lil hit gonna hurt, huh?"
2. "She said you are the father, Noah. Sex before marriage, I can't even stand to look at you."
3. "You're a disgrace."
4. "Never come back. You are no longer our son."
5. "I hope you drop dead. I hate you."
6. ( Cut for offensive language. )
7. "You're HIV Positive."
8. "I'm proud of you."
9. "I'm not going to let you die."
10. "Welcome home."

Noah Cameron :: Original Character