120.5 || Ten Things

[independenceday]

Ten Little Things You Love About Life

1. My sons' smiles
2. My little brother's texts and calls
3. Riding General
4. My last name
5. My own name on my bank account
6. My job
7. Seeing my little brother with his new boyfriend
8. Toys in the living room floor
9. Having short hair
10. The locks on my doors

Comments

[independenceday]

LOL! Now I'm going to be singing "If you're basic and you know it" in my head. Just so you know. I think he's adorable, Shan.

[wordsofwisdom]

My job here is done. He is! Oh my god, I think about him all the time.

[independenceday]

Little brother prerogative, huh? :P I can't tell! Okay, lies, I totally can. I'm so happy for you. I couldn't even try to be scary big sister with him. He was so sweet!

[wordsofwisdom]

I just never thought I could actually BE with someone, you know? Like all the parts of being with someone. Which, okay, I knew logistically I probably could, but I always thought it would be just too much hassle.

[independenceday]

You're really self-sufficient, Shan. Of course you have times when you need extra help, but so does anyone else. I love that you and Fin have this sweet, normal teenager relationship. He's got his illness, and you've got your disability, but it doesn't define the relationship at all.

[wordsofwisdom]

Most days. It's just fun. Even on the days it's not so fun, we just cuddle or talk. We talk a lot. I think that's one of my favourite parts. The talking hasn't been hard or awkward.

[independenceday]

That's huge, too. You need someone like that in your life, that you can just open up and spill your guts to. He's such a sweetie, Shan. And you two are a fun pair. It only stands to reason you'd be having fun together, too.

[wordsofwisdom]

Yeah, spent nearly a week doing that. I don't want to do that again for about another 5 years. He could have any guy, but he wants me.

[independenceday]

There's plenty of time to talk without needing a major gut spilling session. That's because you're amazing, little brother.

[wordsofwisdom]

Then, it's REALLY hard to talk when you're laughing too much at fart jokes. You're too busy trying not to wet yourself. I don't know. I'm just a guy. But he's amazing. Oh my god, you should see him play the drums, and he can sing.

[independenceday]

That moment when you remember that your gorgeous, wonderful baby brother is still a gross boy at heart. :P You're not just a guy, Shan. Far from it. Has he heard you sing?

[wordsofwisdom]

You're a mom to three boys, Kel. There's nooooooooo avoiding it. Oh, yeah! I showed him some of the stuff I've recorded and recorded a song just for him. He said he maybe wants to start a band. There's a guy he knows, he's an Aussie. He plays guitar. But I don't know.

[independenceday]

I know. I'm going to have farts coming at me in all directions. You recorded a song for him? That's fucking adorable. What did you record? And why don't you know? I think a band would be awesome.

[wordsofwisdom]

You should probably know, Fin is shameless when it comes to farts, so you can add him to the mix. Yeah, because when I met him and he told me he had feelings for me, and I knew I was having them for him, it just felt right. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol. I'd just be holding them all back.

[independenceday]

LOL! I'm surrounded by farting boys! I'd say thank fuck for Zara, but she's worse than the lot of you put together. :P I love it. That's a great song, Shan. You're one of the best singers I know. You wouldn't be holding anyone back.

[wordsofwisdom]

You are! THERE'S NO ESCAPE. Fin broke the fart barrier, like, the second time we hung out. The song was just how I felt about him. We've had times where we've not felt good, and we just lie together and cuddle or talk. I love how he feels cuddling me. He's just warm and cozy. What if it's just awkward for a band to have a disabled person around, though? I wouldn't want them to be thinking that but not wanting to say anything in case they hurt my feelings.

[independenceday]

Ah, teen romance. Okay, that just makes my heart so happy, Shan. Knowing that you're being cared for and adored like that is just what any older sibling wants for their younger sibling. You really are head over, aren't you? I love it. I don't think it will be awkward at all. The only way it would be awkward is if they were going for choreographed dancing boyband levels, but it sounds like they're looking for musical talent, and you've got that in bucketloads.

[wordsofwisdom]

Yeah, I love him. He's so special and gorgeous. OMG, he's so hot. He gives me cuddles and he holds my hand. Even if he's pushing me to give my arms a rest, when we stop, he takes my hand. Or come down to my level to cuddle me around the shoulders. He rests his head on my shoulder too. I just like that he wants to do those things with me. And he doesn't just send me texts and nothing else. He'll handwrite notes and take a photo of them, and send that to me. He's just real special. His other friends might not want to hang out with me, though.

[independenceday]

You love him? He must be pretty spectacular. Which I can sort of tell he is. He's so sweet, honey. Seriously? He goes above and beyond, doesn't he? I want to hug him all over again. They might think you're great. Maybe he has other friends who have been through tough things, too?

[wordsofwisdom]

Yeah, I do. And I know Mom and Dad, and half the rest of the world will think that's too soon or I'm too young, but you know what? Screw all that. I could have ended up quadriplegic and if I find someone who is sweet, kind, amazing, and has feelings for me despite being stuck in a chair, I can't just switch my feelings off with that and wait until some indeterminate time in some far away place with fairies in the future that is apparently is the perfect time for people to fall in love in a normal way. He makes me happy and I haven't been happy since this damn thing happened. I just don't want his friends to get tired of him because of me, the same way my friends did with me.