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muserevival2016-10-22 11:27 am
walkwalkfashionbaby) wrote in muserevival2016-10-22 11:27 am
130.3: First person
Love Takes Time
It's a strange situation when the person you found yourself falling head over heels in love with suddenly doesn't remember who you are at all. But that's exactly what happened, and it still ruins me every time I walk into that hospital room and he doesn't know me. Somehow, I can't stop myself from doing it. I've given him gifts, checked in on him on a regular basis, and seen him in hopes that he'd recognize me. Every time I go in, if he's awake and with it, he smiles... that sweet smile that I was falling so hard for. But not the same. The recognition isn't there. He sees me, and he's happy because he loves people... He just loves to talk to people and make new friends. He doesn't realize when he's looking at me that I'm not a new friend.
There's something heartwrenching about that. Maybe it's not meant to be. I don't know if he'll ever remember me. Nate tells me that he loves the blanket that I got for him, but that when he's told it's from me, he doesn't remember my name, but says to tell me thank you. Honestly, I don't know how many more times I can go through this... Seeing him, wanting so much to see that flash of recognition in his eyes -- to know that he remembers something. Anything really. It isn't there. I don't know if it ever will be. I don't want to give up on him or on the chance of there being an us, but how can someone fall in love with you when sometimes he doesn't even remember you from one visit to the next?
And why on earth does it hurt so much when he and I haven't even known one another that long? I ask myself why I'm still hanging on... and when it will be time to walk away.
And when it is... if I'll even be able to.
Lila Jenkins
Original Character
It's a strange situation when the person you found yourself falling head over heels in love with suddenly doesn't remember who you are at all. But that's exactly what happened, and it still ruins me every time I walk into that hospital room and he doesn't know me. Somehow, I can't stop myself from doing it. I've given him gifts, checked in on him on a regular basis, and seen him in hopes that he'd recognize me. Every time I go in, if he's awake and with it, he smiles... that sweet smile that I was falling so hard for. But not the same. The recognition isn't there. He sees me, and he's happy because he loves people... He just loves to talk to people and make new friends. He doesn't realize when he's looking at me that I'm not a new friend.
There's something heartwrenching about that. Maybe it's not meant to be. I don't know if he'll ever remember me. Nate tells me that he loves the blanket that I got for him, but that when he's told it's from me, he doesn't remember my name, but says to tell me thank you. Honestly, I don't know how many more times I can go through this... Seeing him, wanting so much to see that flash of recognition in his eyes -- to know that he remembers something. Anything really. It isn't there. I don't know if it ever will be. I don't want to give up on him or on the chance of there being an us, but how can someone fall in love with you when sometimes he doesn't even remember you from one visit to the next?
And why on earth does it hurt so much when he and I haven't even known one another that long? I ask myself why I'm still hanging on... and when it will be time to walk away.
And when it is... if I'll even be able to.
Lila Jenkins
Original Character