097.5. Ten Things

[alittletoolegal]

Ten early memories of someone you love

1. Regret, regret and more regret... albeit, bittersweet
2. Extensive urges to issue grievous bodily harm via bitchslaps
3. Ripped jeans and cowboy boots
4. Bitchslap urges turning into urges to thump him
5. Sex too incredible for its own good
6. Desire to slam said cock into a door
7. Letting him be the seed of my self-doubt
8. He was the only person who could ever drive me crazy
9. Wondering if it was petty to send him a bill for a pregnancy test and abortion
10. Moot pointing all of the above when we procreated

Dani Lorenzi
~ original character ~

Comments

[themightyfallinlove]

Being a single parent is one of the hardest jobs I can imagine. I don't think it was a walk in the park for you or that it was easy by any stretch. I'm sorry you went through that with the pregnancy and birth. It sounds terrible. I know you're used to doing everything alone, but you don't have to anymore. I'm glad to help with anything. And I don't want you to take that as me saying you can't handle it alone. I know you can. But he's my son, too, and I don't want being his dad to just mean I come and play with him and deal with just the fun parts of having a kid around. I want to help look after him when he's sick, and genuinely help you.

[alittletoolegal]

Honey, you have no idea what is about to hit you.

[themightyfallinlove]

Maybe I don't, but I'm not scared to get my hands dirty when it comes to our son. I'm sure it's hard... But that doesn't mean I'm not willing to get in there and help with him.

[alittletoolegal]

Don't say I didn't warn you. Try Googling Terrible Twos.

[themightyfallinlove]

I don't think parenting is about picking and choosing the bits you deal with. I think it's kind of across the board. Not that I'm an expert on being a parent by any stretch.

[alittletoolegal]

"Across the board" is definitely an accurate description of the Terrible Twos.

[themightyfallinlove]

I'm gonna need to eat my Wheaties, then, huh? Do you have baby books and stuff for him? I want to see some of the stuff I missed.

[alittletoolegal]

Yes, and I've been blogging about him since he was born so I never forgot anything.

[themightyfallinlove]

That's amazing. I'd love to read through it. I want to know as much as I can about him.

[alittletoolegal]

I'll send you the link by email. It's password protected because I don't want my clients viewing it.

[themightyfallinlove]

Yeah, I can definitely see that. We get some crazies in here sometimes. Nobody needs their clients knowing personal details about their kids.

[alittletoolegal]

No, they don't.

[themightyfallinlove]

Are you okay? I'm going to guess this probably isn't how you foresaw any of this turning out.

[alittletoolegal]

Not really. But that's irrelevant. It only matters how Benny is.

[themightyfallinlove]

I know that we were just friends back then, but I want to be here for both of you, if you'll let me. I know you can do it on your own. You have more than proven that. But I want to be someone you can lean on, too.

[alittletoolegal]

Are you sure? Because there's no going back after it. I'll ruin you if you change your mind and hurt him. This is your last chance to back out.

[themightyfallinlove]

I'm not backing out. He's my son. I want to be his dad, not just a sperm donor. I'm 100% sure.

[alittletoolegal]

You think I just used you as a sperm donor?

[themightyfallinlove]

No. But I think a father who doesn't help raise his kid is just that. I helped make him. I want to help take care of him. I want to be a steady part of his life. That's all I mean. My mom used to call my dad my sperm donor, because that's the only thing he ever gave me or did for me... Provided sperm for me to be made. He wasn't a dad. I don't want that.

[alittletoolegal]

Any man can be a father, Curtis. They say it takes someone special to be a daddy.

[themightyfallinlove]

Do you think I've got what it takes?

[alittletoolegal]

I don't know. I could never read you very well as to emotional attachment. You always seemed to... think with your cock. Cocks don't come into parenting.

[themightyfallinlove]

I wasn't thinking with my cock the night I slept with you. I think you deserve to know that. I was thinking with my heart. I don't want you to think that I was looking at you as another notch on the bedpost. You weren't.

[alittletoolegal]

That might take more convincing, because there were a lot of notches before me, and a lot after me.

[themightyfallinlove]

I don't exactly blame you for feeling that way. I don't exactly know how to change your mind on it. All I can do is tell you the truth about it.