127.5 || Ten Things

[starttomakeitbetter]

Ten things you think about when you can't sleep

1) My brother
2) My goddaughter
3) My ex
4) My brother-in-law
5) My best friend
6) His husband
7) My patients
8) Nursing school
9) Straight up fear of the unknown
10) Trying to be better than who I am right now.

Comments

[truthrunswild]

You don't know me, but I would be well within my rights to bitchslap you, you know.

[starttomakeitbetter]

Yeah. I know. And it would be well deserved, too. You're the famous Fin, right?

[truthrunswild]

The famous Fin that will hurt you if you're a snotface? Then yes.

[starttomakeitbetter]

I see why you and Reecy get along so well.

[truthrunswild]

We both think you should be smacked like a bitch? Sure. But dude, my dad got blown up and lost his leg, and my boyfriend is disabled. Sometimes, you gotta put others above yourself because life's nothing without them.

[starttomakeitbetter]

Not so much that as that you're both feisty. You're right about that, though. Life is short, and spending it putting yourself first usually means you'll spend most of it alone. Life ain't a hell of a lot worth living without the people you love.

[truthrunswild]

Why were you a fail boyfriend? She's amazing! She's one of the coolest people I know, and she helped me when I was sick before I even knew her.

[starttomakeitbetter]

I know, dude. She's one of the most incredible people I've ever met. I screwed the pooch on this one in a serious way.

[truthrunswild]

What if you dropped dead tomorrow? This would be your legacy. They'd have no significant other to put on the gravestone. Don't be a gravestone people LOL at.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Fear of the unknown is only relevant if you don't equip yourself with the knowledge. The unknown is nothing until it happens.

[starttomakeitbetter]

The knowledge will come... But right now it's a matter of wait and see.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Look at it this way. It's not cancer. You could talk to Zoran.

[starttomakeitbetter]

No. It's not. Even if I do have it, the treatment options are awesome these days.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Please tell me you didn't fuck anyone else unprotected after the fact. I mean, there's stupid and there's just plain retarded.

[starttomakeitbetter]

No. Fuck no, dude. I haven't fucked anyone since that night.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Getting yourself seen to medically is the best thing to do, whatever happens. Trust me, I've learned that lesson the hard way.

[starttomakeitbetter]

I'm waiting out the results now, and whatever happens, I'm going to try and see a counselor and see if I can't get my head back on straight.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Why not just step up and tell her how you actually feel? Stop leaving it up to her to guess and assume you don't give a fuck. Life's too fucking short, dude. Hasn't everything that's happened to Lorenzo, Lincoln, and Billy been enough of a wake up call for you on that?

[imtoofabulous]

You know, I hear your dick on an electric fence is good punishment. Safer than unsafe sex :P

[starttomakeitbetter]

Probably ultimately wouldn't have hurt as much as some of the stupid shit I've done, either.

[imtoofabulous]

So, you fucked up. Don't let it turn you into a twonk. Stand up and own it.

[starttomakeitbetter]

Owning it's a hell of a lot better than being owned by it.

[imtoofabulous]

Deep. I'd be more inclined to the simplistic "Don't be a fucking cunt, get your shit together."

[starttomakeitbetter]

Much more to the point.

[imtoofabulous]

You can probably find a dot-point self-help guide on Tumblr. "I One Was a Twonk, But I got Better."

[starttomakeitbetter]

I'm going to Tumblr search that right now and see if it's a thing.

[livefortoday]

Sounds like you need some counselling, bro. You want to sit down and talk somewhere?

[starttomakeitbetter]

Honestly... That's probably the best idea I've heard in quite a while.

[livefortoday]

Welcome to come hit me up whenever you need. Or meet me at The Bondi. I'm working with Zoran now too.

[starttomakeitbetter]

You're playing with the band? I could definitely go for a laid back, chill meeting at the Bondi. Maybe a bite to eat and a chat?

[livefortoday]

Yeah, they needed a new member and I play, so I figured why not. May well have met the love of my life in the process too. Definitely, dude. I'm on days this weeks, so evenings are free.

[starttomakeitbetter]

Oh, yeah? Can't beat that. New job and the love of your life in one fell swoop. Let's meet up tonight, then, if you don't already have plans.

[livefortoday]

I respect that everyone's situation is complex, so there's no such thing as just falling in love and being happy. Food always tastes better the day after it's cooked. I think a relationship works the same way, so I'm in that processing time with her. Sure, I'm down with that. Meet you there at 7?

[starttomakeitbetter]

It takes time to get past that honeymoon stage, but I think if you make it past that and do it right, it's the best. Sounds good, dude. I'll see you there.