127.5 || Ten Things

[starttomakeitbetter]

Ten things you think about when you can't sleep

1) My brother
2) My goddaughter
3) My ex
4) My brother-in-law
5) My best friend
6) His husband
7) My patients
8) Nursing school
9) Straight up fear of the unknown
10) Trying to be better than who I am right now.

Comments

[letyourcolorsburst]

Fear of the unknown is only relevant if you don't equip yourself with the knowledge. The unknown is nothing until it happens.

[starttomakeitbetter]

The knowledge will come... But right now it's a matter of wait and see.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Look at it this way. It's not cancer. You could talk to Zoran.

[starttomakeitbetter]

No. It's not. Even if I do have it, the treatment options are awesome these days.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Please tell me you didn't fuck anyone else unprotected after the fact. I mean, there's stupid and there's just plain retarded.

[starttomakeitbetter]

No. Fuck no, dude. I haven't fucked anyone since that night.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Getting yourself seen to medically is the best thing to do, whatever happens. Trust me, I've learned that lesson the hard way.

[starttomakeitbetter]

I'm waiting out the results now, and whatever happens, I'm going to try and see a counselor and see if I can't get my head back on straight.

[letyourcolorsburst]

Why not just step up and tell her how you actually feel? Stop leaving it up to her to guess and assume you don't give a fuck. Life's too fucking short, dude. Hasn't everything that's happened to Lorenzo, Lincoln, and Billy been enough of a wake up call for you on that?