145.5. 10 things

[burningeffigy]

Ten things people falsely assume about you

(1) That I'm somehow a loser delinquent because I have tattoos
(2) That I should have some fucked up past or daddy/mummy issues because I have tattoos
(3) That I'm a drug addict because I have tattoos
(4) That if I'm in a rock band, I can't have had a normal upbringing
(5) That because I'm not the lead singer, I desperately want to be the lead singer
(6) That I don't really play the guitar and it's just a prop
(7) That rock is the only music I should like
(8) That I'm related to the Queen because I'm British
(9) That I've got a dick piercing
(10) That every performance is booze-fuelled

brant fox
( original chracter )

Comments

[livefortoday]

You've known about his true sexuality for awhile, right? I remember him mentioning the band knew the truth, despite what PR contracts he was locked into.

[burningeffigy]

From day one. He hit on me in my brother's pub. That's how we met. We all know. What goes on behind closed doors is a very different reality to the picture PR paints. We've all got our secrets. It would have contributed to the whole drugs and booze thing. He had to be high or drunk to hook up with chicks.

[livefortoday]

You hooked up with him? You're gay too? He's talked to me about that side of things, even if there's a lot he hasn't opened up about yet. Which is okay. He's got to be ready to.

[burningeffigy]

Yeah, bloody hell. Of course I did. I'm bi, but yeah, it's not public knowledge but I never agreed to actively deny it either. I'm not under the same contractual binds as he is. Well, he outed himself now. I can't help but worry if that is what pushed him to this. Like, he had that fake courage when he was high, and then it hit him what he's done. But honestly, it's been drowned out in with the news of the suicide attempt. Everyone probably just thinks it's a rumour. One of many circulating.

[livefortoday]

It could be. It wouldn't have helped. But he already had legal advice on suing for an unconscionable contract. From what I knew of it, they wanted to settle out of court so it didn't create waves and give him leeway to come out publicly with the PR company's support. But only if he agreed not to stay hush about the prior contract.

[burningeffigy]

Are you serious? Then why the hell didn't he wait? He didn't have to wreck himself with this. Fuck.

[livefortoday]

Since when do drugs instil rationality? He made these decisions sober.

[burningeffigy]

Yeah. Yeah, I see your point. We're partly to blame. We never deterred him from doing that shit because we were doing it with him. Just more socially than anything else.

[livefortoday]

Once drugs become an addiction, dude, you can no longer blame environs for their consequences. It's an illness. It needs treatment, just like an illness. He's polysubtance, it's a long road he needs to travel. I know he doesn't feel strong enough.

[burningeffigy]

He told you about the pills then.

[livefortoday]

He did, yeah. At the last hurdle when the withdrawal started to hit. I know it was a big step for him.