#95 BEER

( Cut for triggering references... )

• ian gallagher [ canon: shameless ] @ progress table

CARESS

Chase had spent many nights lying awake alone with his thoughts as he stared blankly at the ceiling, sleep evading him. Insomnia had attacked again, only this time, he wasn’t lying in his own bed. He glanced over at the naked, sleeping body beside him for a few moments, pausing in the absent-minded toying of the St. Christopher’s Medal on the chain around his neck.

He rolled onto his side, shifting closer to Connor and softly caressed his bare shoulder. He missed this intimate and peaceful solitude with someone, and now he really didn’t want to let it go again…

Dr. Robert Chase || House, M.D. || Progress Table
- Connor is theyremembermine, used with super love and permission

Last Christmas I was on a plane. I wish I could tell you where but the destination wasn't as important as getting out of Japan. The only thing I really remember about that day was talking to this guy in the bar at the airport.

He was on his way home from deployment. A real young guy. Barely married a year and 8 months of it he spent in some god forsaken desert. He told me all his family was already waiting at the base. He had a real big family from the sound of it. Some of them even had to fly in from out of town. I remember thinking that there was no one waiting for me on the other end of my flight. No one even knew where I was. If the plane went down, no one would even know that I was dead since the ticket wasn't in my real name.

It wasn't then that I decided to come back to New York. That was months later but that day was when the seed was planted. Even when I finally decided to come back, I told myself it was out of self-preservation. I'd pissed off too many dangerous people. Seeking out Matt was a risk but I told myself that my odds were better with him then toughing it out alone.

The truth is I don't want to die without a single person knowing or caring that I'm gone.